Hot headed couples with harsh words and mean replies. It looks like the end of the relationship as we know it. Turning the page after three loving, wonderful, and magical years. Isn’t that just sad?
In fact, like all women, I was staring depressed outside of my train window, listening to my go-to break up song “so sick” by NEYO. When I looked up I started wondering about my future… How would it feel to love another person? Recently I came across a quote by Fitzgerald, and it got me thinking; I am used to the love and warmth of his love. Do I really want something else? A love greater and grander? Like all women, I say yes.
I met a guy, he gave me all his attention and care. He, let’s call him jean-pièrre, was so sweet, you could feel your teeth rotting and instantly die from diabetes on the inside. And like all women, I tried to imagine a future with jean-pièrre. Surprisingly, I liked that “what if”- thought. Yes I did, because all this sweet and sugary courting reminded me of how my Diego courted me in the beginning of our relationships, of our dates, our awkwardness, but the future we planned together was looking prettier than living in royal castle with jean-pièrre. It’s is the best future I could ever imagine because, unlike my future with jean-pièrre, the one I’ll be having with the man of my life is realistic.
What i loved so much about pretending to have a different “boyfriend” is that in every scenario I pictured me and jean-pièrre together, I foresaw my Diego’s reaction and responses. I have lived with my Diego for so long, know him inside and out, and I know how his brain and heart works. I dont need a “what if” because I can say with certainty thay his love for me, slowly but surely, grows greater and grander everyday. I fell in love with my boyfriend all over again in those 50 minutes of train ride home.
Here and now, tomorrow and forevermore, I will only have one true love, and I am sincerely happy I can entrust my heart with my Diego.